Espanola Lecture

 
Date:
August 21, 1989
Location:
Espanola, NM
 
 
 
 

Somebody came from Albuquerque.

Student: (-------)

YB: Ha?

Student: (-------)

YB: No, Kulbir has to send something for me, I am just waiting, if he, he remembers it.

Student: (-------)

YB: So many.

Student: (-------)

YB: Now, look at this, this goes into the bears with prayers to share the other ones too. Bear is a family; coyote is the underworld, eagle is the supreme word, just to know that cost sixteen thousand dollars.

Student: (-------)

YB: I know, he gave it to me. Now this is this, now I have to give this, okay. How you know that?

Student: (------)

YB: Somebody, okay. Ha get this done and there is a stone which has to go in the centre of it and ring has to be made and it has to be worn for eleven days and you put me on spot for eleven days, I was trying to avoid the issue.

(YB & Students laugh)

Now, what you have brought that will be half million dollars.

(Students laughs)

Student: (-------)

YB: Hey, come on.

Student: (--------)

YB: Huh.

Student: (--------)

YB: Oh, my God, I mean this is the Christ Rome...

Student: (--------)

YB: Very true, that's what I am saying.

Okay what we are going to talk tonight after all these opening ceremonies of this present. It is called perpetual personality. I have no doubt in my understanding for any reason you can call it and anybody does not want to win. Take it or leave it, there is nobody who want to suffer, there is nobody who wants to lie, there is nobody who wants to be a thief. No woman wants to lose her grace.

But want, want, want, want, want, want and people say because of want we work, if we want to work for a want, then world should not have been nothing but heavens. It's not, fact is, it is not. So where we go wrong? We do not want to be insecure and we multiply our insecurity more than we can face it. That is where we go wrong?

Our attitude to life is that I have to survive, I have to believe, I have to live and I have a tomorrow and we make this tomorrow so long and so big and so huge that we even cannot describe what this tomorrow is and because of that big, long, huge, unpredictable tomorrow, we become multiple insecure than we should normally be, net result unhappiness. Well, all we have to be just unhappy then we trigger out of our unhappiness a retaliation.

Once, you become little unhappy, little then you become paranoia because unhappiness and fear when join together it results in paranoia and when fear joins with your absolute depression then it becomes Phobia. Problem is phobia, you cannot hold in more than seventy-two hours. Once you are in a phobic stage with in seventy-two hours you must burst out irrationally. It is that irrational burst out which ruin your reputation. 'Oh, that she is crazy, oh that she is insane, oh that don't touch her she is hot. He, no don't talk about him?' Reputation travels faster and ahead of you, then there is absolutely no dearth of being unhappy. So it becomes a cycle.

I have talked with lot of people and lot of people love me and I love them. But sometime I gauge it, you know they love me, they don't have ears, they love me, they don't have eyes, they love me, they don't have a tongue to keep their word, they don't have a face to face me and it is me who doesn't need anything for myself, all I want for them. If that is the stage of a relationship which is a one type, one style, one way relationship, all I want is them to be happy, good and fantastic and excellent. How you can relate to anybody in the Earth?

With me there is nothing I demand, except I ask you to discipline yourself, so you can create a spring boost, so that you can go through goofs and you can hit the target that's all is the relationship, with me you are scared.

And if a person on this planet can be scared with one man who has only one way of relationship, how can you be ever happy and have a relationship where you have equally responding factor involved. Normally, relationship is mutual, 'I love you, you love me, I kiss you, you hug me, I sleep with you, you sleep me, I intercourse with you, you produce my babies.' All this is based on gain and loss. Ah, put any cover on it, I mean to say you can have any Christmas wrap on anything inside the story is the same. It will never change. Relationship is based on gaining a satisfaction spiritual, physical, mental, social, prestige, identity, personality, all that long line everybody wants from everybody. Whenever the gain becomes loss and when become loss becomes dead loss, relationship starts breaking. There cannot be a relationship.

Nobody for a long time can carry a losing relationship. I know you cannot handle relationship because I never lose a relationship. In my whole life, I have never said, 'no,' to even I have to say 'no' and I never drop anything in my whole life but people have dropped me. And I know why? Because we are in conflict, I think poverty is a curse, I think everybody is made in God. I believe everybody is supposed to be prosperous. I believe there are three things for a man to do; prosperity, prosperity and achieve it. I don't believe if you put your everything together you can be in any losing circumstances but for you it's not practical. Because you are all angry, inverted anger is there, 'oh no, oh no, oh no' you make that bear face 'oh no,'

(Students laugh)

You know you do that all the time but question is, are you a bear? Can you hibernate? You can't, you are a human, when you are human you act like a bear, when you are human you act like a fox, when you are a human you will act like a hyena, when you are a human you act like a wolf, when you are human you act like a cow, you bully everybody, you put your horn in every stomach. All these zodiac signs in astrology have a animal shape that means that is your death point. If Taurus is like a Taurus and act like a Taurus that's a dead Taurus, she is ready to be eaten like a steak. If a Pisces is a Pisces and she wants to act as a Pisces she is ready to be fried as a fish. Whenever your zodiac sign and symbol of animal is put out you are ready to be done, your life starts being miserable from that day.

That is why people found constellations and that's why people made this zodiac sings and that's why people said what is positive and negative. Your perpetual personality is supposed to progress, if it doesn't progress it stinks, if it is stink it will make you unhappy, it make you unhappy you are unfulfilled. You are unfulfilled you are miserable, you are miserable you are psychotic, you are psychotic, neurotic, acotic, potatic whatever you are? Your value is not worth more than a boiled potato and you can't live that way and therefore you fight. When you fight you cannot live that way either, therefore you relax, when you relax you get exploited you cannot live that way. Therefore, you get uptight and you get uptight you cannot live that way, you become relax, when you relax you taken advantage you cannot live that way, which way you want to live?

There is no way. By bitching and by itching, by sweet and (?), it doesn't make sense. Therefore, God made you human, so you live in light, live lightly till light. Now, you who are here you know too much but you do your Sadana right, you built your mental capacity right, you keep your physical right, you will be all right. You got to face the fact that you have the tools not to be fool. But question is, you are so insensitive to loss and so much loss has happened in lives, you don't even care. Let it go. And once you let it go it is endless, it is a avalanche, it continues, snowballs you don't like that either.

So I am asking you a question, after all is there anything you like?

If you develop your personality on factual basis the perpetual personality will show up in you, everybody will trust you, everybody will love you, everybody will bring you the opportunity. All you have to do it, be very wise and humble and cash it.

Don't be fed by your neurosis; don't start on a fear basis. You are only afraid when you are not in trust with God. Trust God, trust Unknown you cannot be afraid. People ask me, "Are you afraid?"

I say, "Oh I am very afraid."

"No, you don't look like afraid."

I said, "No, I am very afraid."

"You don't (?)..." twenty things, but they do feel I am not afraid. You know why I am not afraid? Why should be I afraid if anything gone wrong, GuruGuru That which takes us from ignorance to knowledge; from darkness, gu, to light, ru. It can be a person, a teaching, or in its most subtle form - the Word. Guru Ram Das Fourth Guru of the Sikhs. Ram DasGuru Ram Das Fourth Guru of the Sikhs. will be hung what to me? I didn't do anything wrong. Now that's a relationship, that's the relationship with the Unknown, you who are Sikhs are fortunate, many, many time fortunate that you even understand. You have known and Unknown both in Siri GuruGuru That which takes us from ignorance to knowledge; from darkness, gu, to light, ru. It can be a person, a teaching, or in its most subtle form - the Word. GranthGranth Literally: knot: book. . And if still you do not understand how happy to be then there is something wrong then you are not totally taking it, you are not getting get.

Your criteria of life is not to approximately believe but to deal with it. If I believe there is a God, I believe. I think there is a God, I think. I know there is a God, I know but I keep on sitting like this what is the use. You have to move, you have to move not towards the faith, you have to move with faith, you have not towards move to be happy life, you have to move happily. You have not to find God, you have found God. Wasting time in finding something is just wasting your day of the life which will never come back to you. What you believe move with it, don't go out and say out of business sale have me, you will never get a thing, wait till somebody find you, have patience. You can go after cheap, short once, twice, three times, four time, ten...

Just today before coming here, I was making phone call to somebody and the person on the other side said, "Why should I trust you?"

I said, "You should not, never trust me."

"Why should I believe you?"

I said, "You should never, never, never believe me."

"Why should I love you?"

I said, "I do not want it."

"What should I do with you?"

I said, "Nothing."

"But I still love you."

I said, "That's your problem."

"Why?"

I said, "I never deal with inferiority, I push you for superiority, for excellence, you don't like it and you have a problem."

"I cannot talk to you because I abuse you."

I said, "You do it every week, that's all you do. Abuse yourself for six days, seventh day luckily if you can catch me abuse me because you are angry, you don't believe in yourself you don't have self-esteem, you don't understand. How to stand under?"

"I am sorry whatever you are telling is truth but I can't do it."

I said, "Don't, I keep on telling you keep on not doing maybe one day before dying you will realize what I said was for your good."

"Convince me why you are for my good?"

I said, "If I am not for your good then I am for a liability anybody among you who is not happy, rich or comfortable is my liability, everybody who is rich, happy and comfortable is my asset then I don't have to bother."

I said, "Who want his loved one to be poor, miserable and horrible?" "Nobody."

I said, "Why you feel I am different?"

"We are only your students."

I said, "Dead wrong, you are part of me, when you are hurt I am more hurt I am ten time more hurt because I lose the chance to make you ten time better than me." This is a dialogue of love, it is a perpetual love, it is a perpetual personality, it is a reality which nobody can break through.

I have students when I came twenty years ago they are not Sikhs, they are not Khalsas, they are one of the most rotten stuff I ever had, I still deal with them, neither they have left me nor I can leave them. Twenty years teaching you ask them they can totally repronounce it better than me.

That day I went to UNM and that day I went to this show, I met this guy, twenty years ago I know, Surya recognized him he is exactly the same thing not a difference, he never became Sikh neither he has left being not a Sikh, neither he left me nor I can leave him. Early in the morning he just does and meditates, where you can go from that. Mind is as good as word the entire universe is. I also know he is a most wonderful student of mine who one day came and told me, "Sir I can't be your student."

I said, "You are never my student."

He said, "I was first pretending now I can't be."

I said, "Good-bye, go."

He is always there, he is always around, but he couldn't leave one habit and I couldn't accept him on that. Because I believe love is a power, through love you can break through anything otherwise you don't love.

If somebody says, 'I am in love,' I love it, oh God thank you. Because I think the real thing has come but that is the commotionalism, what you call love is a commotionalism that's not love. You got to understand you got to grow into a reality of a perpetual personality where there is absolutely no flaw. Love makes life flawless, love brings the wealth of the entire world, love elevates you just like God. There is nothing wrong to be in love but figure it out is it fake.

Please, understand you are fortunate, God brought you to the GuruGuru That which takes us from ignorance to knowledge; from darkness, gu, to light, ru. It can be a person, a teaching, or in its most subtle form - the Word. , GuruGuru That which takes us from ignorance to knowledge; from darkness, gu, to light, ru. It can be a person, a teaching, or in its most subtle form - the Word. has to deliver you back to God and God is pure, impurities have to be left. Let us go inside through meditationMeditation Dhyan. It is a process of deep concentration or merger into an object or a state of consciousness. Meditation releases reactions and unconscious habits and build the spontaneous and intuitive link to awareness itself. and find it out what we are talking about. Perpetual personality projections through the meditative mind, that I will complete with you today and what is today?

Student: (--------)

YB: Monday right, and I will be twenty-fourth I have to leave. I have passed my maximum time with you and if sill you are goofy then there is something definite wrong with you. Because you love your neurosis more than you love me, you don't want to let them go. And I can give into anything but one thing, neurosis, I don't like them. Man with neurosis cannot nurture even his own children. Man with neurosis is his own enemy, man with neurosis is totally senseless, man with neurosis is absolutely immunity at touch of any feelings, man with neurosis is a angry wolf who will even eat his own children when time comes. Neurosis comes when your entire intelligence and consciousnessConsciousness The nature of the self and being. In the realm of nature, awareness becomes consciousness. It is from the being itself. Being is expressed in consciousness through contrasts and sensations, in awareness through merger, clarity, and reality. doesn't work, your commotions become dark and you just follow your craziness. With neurosis only you exploit your relationship and your relationship and you put so much burden that life become miserable, people presume.

In Canada I met a neurotic woman, I talked to her and she said, "Last night you came in my bed, you were sleeping with me, then you got up you slapped my face then you make me to take bath then you made me to meditate then you slapped me again and forced me to sleep that's why I got up two pm." You listen to that story, she was telling me face to face. She was educated, everything was very fine, I called my secretary I said, "Last night did you drop me to the house."

She said, "No, last night we left for Ottawa, remember?"

I said, "Yeah, yeah I remember but she says I went last night into her bed, I slept with her and then I slapped her face woke her up, made her to do meditationMeditation Dhyan. It is a process of deep concentration or merger into an object or a state of consciousness. Meditation releases reactions and unconscious habits and build the spontaneous and intuitive link to awareness itself. and then I put her in bed and slap her again to sleep, I mean do you understand this?"

She said, "What she is talking about? She is educated; she is wonderful what's wrong with her?"

I said, "I don't know. You are listening."

She said, "What you are talking, you are covering YogiYogi One who has attained a state of yoga (union) where polarities are mastered and transcended. One who practices the disciplines of yoga and has attained self-mastery. jiJi Soul; used as an endearment or sign of respect. ."

"Am I lying?"

She said, "Honey you lie or not but those sixty students in Ottawa who did with him the yoga in the morning you go and ask those sixty don't ask me" and secondly she got into purse and she put out the ticket, She said, "I got a parking ticket in Ottawa, check the date and the time."

And then she looked at her, she said, "Am I wrong?"

And we said, "No you are right, thank God I only made you to meditate nothing else." Your projective personality and your perpetual personality can conflict totally as a reality. The kids up there said, "What it matters if he is physically not here that's one body; nine bodies are here," they were correct. Therefore, please understand how much clarity of mind you need, lot, because projective personality and perpetual personality can totally be perfectly, truthfully, believable items. So don't misunderstand what can happen to us. Therefore, let us go inside and find our inner perpetual personality which is our reality, not this projective facade we have gone in.

All right, Sun finger, close your eyes breathe deep, breathe deep and pump your navel seven times and let the breath come out. You have to do nothing just breathe in, pump your belly button seven time and let the breath go.

(?).

(Tape is played)

YB: (Talks over tape) Now breathe in deep and pump it twelve times and let it go. Go inside and find that deep strength.

Side B

(Tape continues...)

YB: (Talks over tape) Inhale deep.

(Tape stops)

And hold, put 'AnandAnand Bliss, ecstasy. Bhaya Meri Maaye, AnandAnand Bliss, ecstasy. Bhaya Meri Maaye,' exhale, inhale deep, exhale deep, breathe consciously longest and deepest and retain it, just create friendship with breath of life because that keeps you alive, not me, you and us. Breathe consciously let us see what we do. The only way you can win and survive and be excellent if your blood has twenty-one percent of oxygen that only comes if that breath is full. Breath is full, life is full, breath is off, life is off, breath is shallow, life is shallow. Deep long breath, as deep as you can, hold it as long you can, exhale as powerful you can.

(Tape, 'I am bountiful...' is played)

(Tape stops)

Deep, hold and pump your belly button sixteen times by count. Let it go, inhale again, count your belly button twelve times now. Let it go, inhale deep, count your belly button eight times now. Let it go, inhale deep count your belly button four times, let it go. Put your hands up, please shake them as the entire body, every part of it, shake, shake, shake, shake, every part of it. Let energy utilize itself. Well you are pretty good sorry to tell you that, you are more or less Tylenol two tablets can do. May the long time sun shine upon you all love...

(Students sing, 'May the long time...')

YB: (Talks over tape) All love... and the pure... guide your way on, SatSat Existence; what is; the subtle essence of Infinity itself. Sat Naam , Sat Nam The essence or seed embodied in form; the identity of truth. When used as a greeting it means "I greet and salute that reality and truth which is your soul." It is called the Bij Mantra - the seed for all that comes. Sat Naam , Sat Nam The essence or seed embodied in form; the identity of truth. When used as a greeting it means "I greet and salute that reality and truth which is your soul." It is called the Bij Mantra - the seed for all that comes. NamSat Naam , Sat Nam The essence or seed embodied in form; the identity of truth. When used as a greeting it means "I greet and salute that reality and truth which is your soul." It is called the Bij Mantra - the seed for all that comes. Naam , Nam The manifested identity of the essence. The word derives from Naa-ay-ma , which means "that which is not, now is born." A Naam gives identity, form, and expression to that which was only essence or subtle before. It is also referred to as the Word. .

(Song stops)

Now, it is nine forty-eight, now you can go home and gossip and why don't you have a class like this everyday. Does it cost much, hah? See how pretty you are now. Everybody came here like.

(Students laughs)

I said, oh God, what I am going to deal with. Look how relax, and human and happy and you look good and you are relaxed, doesn't take much. Well if God willing and life remains next year, how about that? Oh will you, will you develop yourself and become prosperous. Hah? What I have taught you is a very secret KriyaKriya Literal meaning is "completed action." A Kundalini Yoga Kriya is a sequence of postures and yoga techniques used to produce a particular impact on the psyche, body, or self. The structure of each kriya has been designed to generate, organize, and deliver a particular state or change of state, thereby completing a cycle of effect. These effects have been codified and elaborated by Yogi Bhajan and form the basic tools used in yoga and its therapeutic applications. in the KundaliniKundalini Comes from the word "kundal"; coiled energy; the creative potential of an individual. Kundalini Yoga It is a Raaj Yoga that creates vitality in the body, balance in the mind, and openness to the spirit. It is used by the householder, busy in the world, to create immediate clarity. The fourth Guru in the Sikh tradition, Guru Ram Das, was acknowledged as the greatest Raaj Yogi. (See Raaj Yogi.) He opened this long secret tradition to all. yogaKundalini Yoga It is a Raaj Yoga that creates vitality in the body, balance in the mind, and openness to the spirit. It is used by the householder, busy in the world, to create immediate clarity. The fourth Guru in the Sikh tradition, Guru Ram Das, was acknowledged as the greatest Raaj Yogi. (See Raaj Yogi.) He opened this long secret tradition to all. it takes away the projected personality which is always a non reality and gives you perpetual personality which is your reality. The benefit of perpetual personality is all the opportunities will come to you, you don't have to go after anybody.

Now, make up a point you come here, everybody should come here seven clock, seven to nine two hours breathe, deep exercise, have beautiful music playing, you have the best thing. Wind up; you got to take care of you, become again who you really are. Okay. Get out of this lethargy, all right SatSat Existence; what is; the subtle essence of Infinity itself. Sat Naam , Sat Nam The essence or seed embodied in form; the identity of truth. When used as a greeting it means "I greet and salute that reality and truth which is your soul." It is called the Bij Mantra - the seed for all that comes. Sat Naam , Sat Nam The essence or seed embodied in form; the identity of truth. When used as a greeting it means "I greet and salute that reality and truth which is your soul." It is called the Bij Mantra - the seed for all that comes. NamSat Naam , Sat Nam The essence or seed embodied in form; the identity of truth. When used as a greeting it means "I greet and salute that reality and truth which is your soul." It is called the Bij Mantra - the seed for all that comes. Naam , Nam The manifested identity of the essence. The word derives from Naa-ay-ma , which means "that which is not, now is born." A Naam gives identity, form, and expression to that which was only essence or subtle before. It is also referred to as the Word. .

Students: SatSat Existence; what is; the subtle essence of Infinity itself. Sat Naam , Sat Nam The essence or seed embodied in form; the identity of truth. When used as a greeting it means "I greet and salute that reality and truth which is your soul." It is called the Bij Mantra - the seed for all that comes. Sat Naam , Sat Nam The essence or seed embodied in form; the identity of truth. When used as a greeting it means "I greet and salute that reality and truth which is your soul." It is called the Bij Mantra - the seed for all that comes. NamSat Naam , Sat Nam The essence or seed embodied in form; the identity of truth. When used as a greeting it means "I greet and salute that reality and truth which is your soul." It is called the Bij Mantra - the seed for all that comes. Naam , Nam The manifested identity of the essence. The word derives from Naa-ay-ma , which means "that which is not, now is born." A Naam gives identity, form, and expression to that which was only essence or subtle before. It is also referred to as the Word. .

YB: See you. Hey you creep...

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